I'M WEIRD AND I LIKE WEIRD PEOPLE.

Ok. You people have no fucking idea how many times I come to WordPress’s dashboard and go OK I SHALL BLOG BOUT SOMETHING SUBSTANTIAL AND TIME-WORTHY and just close the page because I’m either too distracted or plainly because knowing me, I just fucking forget what I want to blog.

Anyhoo, I’ll start this entry with like, a few photos of the Black Alice runway show I went to with a few weeks ago. HAHAHAHA.

wahlao she the chioest canzzz.

Stupid model kept moving so fast. >___> TMD.

LOL. We were going o_O at her expression. I mean, you’re wearing AP lor, what’s with the OHAI BITCH PLZ expression? HAHAHAHA.

Anyhoo. Like. As usual, school’s a drag but the people make up for it. LOL. I mean, we’re always doing the same shit everyday that it gets REALLY REALLY mundane after a while. >>>; Like, it’s always OHEY WE DO PDT NOWZ, WE GO EATZ, WE COME BACK AND DO WORKSHEET AND PPT, OK GAIZ SPLIT UP AND THEN COME BACK TO COLLATE SLIDES, OK PRESENT, SIT THROUGH 6P WHERE 90% OF US DON’T GIVE A FUCK BOUT IT AND OKAY HOME GAIZ!

HAHAHAHA. MY LIFE SOUNDS SO BORING RIGHT HAHAHAHA. Which is why I’m always looking forward to like, sudden class convo’s on my taskbar where half the convo’s are nonsensical bullshit and horny ramblings. HAHAHA IF ONLY I COULD COPY+PASTE THEM HERE BUT HIE. HAHAHAHA. BLACKMAILZZZZ. 8DDDD

Ohyah. Apparently like, a good friend of mine’s being all emotional now and she decided that OHEY I SHALL KICK BRYAN OFF MY LJ LIST AND NOT REPLY HIS MSN MESSAGES. Well, frankly, as I’ve said 92994598592881 times to people, IDGAF bout such stuff anymore. Like, it’s so sec school to worry bout such situations because it’s either people hate you, or love you. Just stick with the ones that love you and tell the ones that hate you to get a life. So to the friend who decided to pull this kinda bullshit on me should you read my blog, I don’t mind becoming friends with you again. But, if you decide to continue being like this, either you get over your emotional crap, or just go fucking die kthxbye.

FOOD PORN TIMEZ. HAHAHAHA. GOD I WANNA GO EAT AT TAMPOPO AGAIN AT TAKA! )))): But service there fucking sucks though. >___> Shiro and I were like ?_? at the waiter’s because they couldn’t enunciate the food name correctly. It was kinda like, *INSERT GIBBERISH AND PUTS FOOD ON YOUR TABLE BEFORE SLINKING AWAY*. Hahaha. Couldn’t give a damn though, good food makes up for it! >3</

*boyisthisentrygettingfuckinglong*

SAY HERRO GAIZ. I have no idea why I inserted this photo here out of nowhere. HAHAHAHA. LIKE. OK WHATEVER I’M WAXING LYRICAL AGAIN AND MAKING MYSELF SEEM STUPID. pffft. We needz a private dorrie meet soon! ): Anybody up for it? LOL.

OK I MIGHT BLOG AGAIN TONIGHT OR SOMETHING FUCK I SHALL ATTEMPT TO STUDY. LOL.

I hate to admit this, but I fucking miss CO. ):

Wrai herro thar! 8DDDD

HAI THAR DIS BE MAH NEW BFF AMANDA. ME LOVE HER MANY. 8DDD

WAHLAO I DAMN ZILIAN HAHAHAHA. DON’T JUDGE ME.

WAHLAO STEVE LOOKS LIKE A REALLY HOT BUTCH HAHAHA. ME LOVE YOU STEVE. 8DDD

I have no idea what the fuck I was doing. HAHAHA BUT QIQI LOOKS DAMN BITCHY HERE ME LOVE. <33333333333

IT’S CONFIRMED. I’M IN LOVE WITH CAMEROID.COM AND FEE TOO HAAHHA FEE ME LOVE YOU TOO. I LOVE THE WHOLE WORLDDD. 8DDD

If, for example, you lived at the bottom of the sea,
I’d cut my feet off and become a fish.
If I can get closer to you the deeper I’ll sink.
I wouldn’t even mind becoming a shadow that wanders through the endless darkness.

The shimmering haze hangs charmingly in the air.
I was just drowning in the days that didn’t work out.
You’re not here,
I know that, I know that.

As the sun rises higher and higher,
It purifies the place where I am.
The warm, warm wind takes away,
The blue stamp imprinted on me.

If these words are able to reach you,
You can rip out my vocal cords and throw them away.

I was longing, longing
To lose my stinging wounds.
And for your warmth to take everything away,
Even if it was just a dream.

Your warmth is disappearing, disappearing,
Taking with it the place where I am.
I want to go to sleep, wrapped in your arms,
That are able to wipe out my punishment.

The sun rises and rises,
Purifying the place where I am.
I want to sleep, wrapped in your arms,
That are able to wipe out my punishment

As your warmth disappears and disappears,
It takes me away from the place where I am,
The warm, warm wind takes away,
The blue stamp imprinted on me.

The pieces of my memories are rotting away,
I don’t have anymore piercings to cover myself.
I’m forgetting you, you’re fading,
Your voice fades into the rabble.

They’re falling away, they’re falling away,
I don’t have enough piercings to cover myself.
I’m forgetting you without a trace,
Your voice fades into the rabble.

Blue skies to forever

The green grass blows in the wind, swaying

It would be a much better sight

If I knew where this was going

Hey there to my future self

If you forget how to smile

I have this to tell you

Remember it once in a while

Oh,  what a pair, me and you

Put here to feel joy, not be blue

Come sad times and bad times, we’ll see them through

Soon we will know if it’s for real

What we both feel

Though I can’t know for sure how things will work out for us

No matter how hard it gets, you have to realize

We weren’t put on this earth to suffer and cry

We were made for being happy

PS : I think I’m getting more and more pensive. :/ Maybe I should start writing random poems and stories again.

I…I had a dream.

Even if it was like my clothes,torn and tattered,

Hidden deep in my heart as precious as a gem.

An unforgettable dream.

I… Teased for looking ugly,

Endured humiliation.

I beared with it,

Enduring in silence for that day’s sake.

You… Always telling me worriedly,

Saying that unpractical dreams are like poison.

You claimed that pre-determined outcomes are unchanging reality.

But I… I have my dreams.

I believe in my dreams,

So please… Stand by me.

Facing reality’s cold hard door,

I’ll find the courage to reach out for it.

Someday, I’ll push it open and soar towards the blue sky.

No matter how oppressive this world is,

It’ll never hinder my flight.

On the top of this world, Please be with me and share my smile.

I was listening to this song on the KBS concert sang by Sohyang when I went, ohey that’s a REALLY GOOD SONG and I finally found it on youtube after 3 hours of perilous searching! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6EtxrHtb6s)>Her version.

And when I read the lyrics, it made more sense and I felt so melancholic. :/ It kinda reminds me of the times in Secondary School when I felt so unhappy and stifled. I guess it’s because there wasn’t people in Secondary School I could relate to and when I told them my dreams and such, they’d laugh and said I was stupid. It didn’t help that they thought I was ugly too.

Coming to poly, I was like, woah, maybe I’d meet like-minded people and yes I did. Up till today, I still thank God even though I don’ believe in him for letting this people come into my life. Like, I just never though there’ll be people who shared the same dreams as me. You know, people who’d go, OK I SUPPORT YOU LET’S DO IT TOGETHER instead of HAHA YOU HAZ STUPID DREAMS FORGET IT LAH THIS JOB CANNOT MAKE IT ONE.

I realized, that, if we always give a damn what people say, we’ll generally suffocate ourselves to death and hamper all the epic things we can do. Like, I just feel we spend too much time in our lives worrying how we portray ourselves. You know, just like what we discussed on Friday, there’s no use conforming to what people expect of you if it’s just gonna make you unhappy.

In simple, life’s too short for you to put up a facade just to please people. I’m gonna live it the way I want, pursue my dreams and climb that cold wall called fate.

Before photoshop!

AFTER PHOTOSHOP.

LOL I <3 CS4 TIME TO BEAUTIFY MYSELF HAHAHA.

A delicate thread ties me to
that simple village from back then.
Every time I look up to the sky,
I see a shimmer of that far away world.
After I leave this place, how long,
will it be untill I pass it again?
Home is calling.

Even now my home is gently,
echoing throughout my heart.
On dreamless nights,
when I feel blue and lonely,
I call out for you.

People sacrifice their hearts,
entrusting the city’s sky with their dreams.
Everyone wanders around,
unable to get peace from love or ambition
Why did take me so long to realize that I,
loved those innocent pure days from back then.
Home is calling.

The faces of the people back home,
constantly gave me the love I needed.
Oh I’d love to see them once more,
Giving in to my homesickness
I call out for you.

As I quietly open the curtain,
seperating the past and present,
a light shines throught a rift in the clouds,
illuminating the passing time,
Home is calling.

Even now my home is gently,
echoing throughout my heart,
I entrust my body to hope,
letting nothing stand in my way.
On dreamless nights,
when I feel blue and lonely,
I call out for you,
Home is always calling out my name.

On dreamless nights,
when I feel blue and lonely,
I call out for you.
Home is calling out my name.

(OMG I HAZ GA-IN EYES. HAHAHAHA. -BRICKED)

Thank you Elora for the hairband. AHAHAHA I FELT SO BLIND TODAY. Q____Q

HAHAHA. OK PICTURE POST ONLY.

I was hanging with Jess and Amanda today when we suddenly delved on the topic of ostracization. Ok, frankly, we talk bout random shit but that’s not the topic today.

Apparently, they had a mass convo last night but I was as usual asleep. Q___Q They were apparently talking bout how they were totally ostracized and also, how people had prejudice against them for the most fucked up of reasons.

For example, Jess was ostracized cause she was artsy and Quan was also shunned because of his age. This totally got me thinking, if we hate people for the wrong reasons, then is the love we have for other people genuine? Think about it, if you hate people for the stupidest of reasons, then what bout the criteria you set for liking people too? It’s just fucking stupid.

It’s kinda how people have homos. Like, they go EW HOMO OMG SHUNNNN HE’S DIFFEREENTTTT, BUT. If you think about it, how different is their difference? I mean,it’s just sexuality right? Like, they just like people of their own gender. Like, who the fuck cares? They’re happy, we’re happy, why not just appreciate them for who they are? Spread some love, be loved and generally be nice to everyone. Why set stupid standards for making friends?

This is why I’m relatively friendly to everyone, IDGAF if you’re fat, gay, lesbian, self-proclaimed ugly or whatever society deems you, as long as you’re nice, then by all means, I’ll just love and appreciate you for what you are.